Chi

Over mij

Thank you for visiting my profile. (ik spreek trouwens ook Nederlands :) If you are reading this, then most likely I am someone who has experienced what you are coping with at this moment in your life. Growing up my life always has been in the contrast of things. Because I was adopted into a Dutch family I was bullied at primary school for being Asian, for being different. My (adoption) parents being disconnected with themselves didn’t know how to listen nor how to give the little-me love and support in this process. Leaving me with a deep sense of Not-Belonging and Loneliness. In my mid 20’s I became depressed. And because I couldn’t find a way out I was thinking of ending things. After overcoming this long battle, this development of being different than others continued for a while into my adulthood and set me apart from society. Feeling disconnected, I finally started to seek out my bliss in the night life. Alcohol, women and cocaine were the things that made me feel connected and alive again. And so in my thirties I became heavily addicted to drugs and alcohol. Being depressed and an addict pushed me to learn a great deal about myself. About how my thoughts fuel certain emotions and vice versa only to get stuck in a spiral of the mind. Or how certain emotions were triggered by certain situations, in turn leading to a repetition of unwanted behavior. I made a promise to Life that, if I would be healed one day, as a token of Gratitiude I would make serious efforts to guide and inspire other’s to do the same. Though I still have a few of addictions, namely chocolate.. nevertheless I am ready prepped with the experience and tools to guide You